These are some of my thoughts and experiences that I would like to share since I started meditating:
“Sometimes you’re happy. Sometimes you’re sad. Sometimes you feel lonely and try to get attached to everything that comes around you. You’re afraid of being alone with your thoughts. But this moment of "being alone", will come anyway or anyhow, sooner or later, no matter how hard you try to avoid it. And you have to face it eventually. But you are still afraid of something, and you keep on pushing it away. Far away. You try to get involved and end up getting lost in all sorts of things that you think will bring you far away from the looseness with yourself. You even believe that all those things will bring you joy and happiness.
Oh, but how wrong we can be sometimes!
"A thing", "that thing" that you wanted so much. You have it. And then what? Usually it takes time before you’re bored of it and will want something else. You continue on this path. You draw circles around yourself and get lost in these circles. And you realize that you are still running away from that moment within yourself...Give yourself some time to find the courage. The time will come when you are sick of running in those circles. You have already "tried" that for a couple of times. Now try something else.
Try to let go of everything and be honest with yourself. Try to observe yourself as you are without nothing else, just pure emptiness. In the beginning you might be scared of the amount of thoughts and questions that you have. You might even be scared of your past and actions. Just simply accept them and do not turn around. This is how you are, what you are. And once you have the courage to accept your sadness and other negativities, these feelings will turn into emptiness and stillness. And from here is where your beautiful journey in life begins. From here, happiness arises. Sometimes you can feel it.